Hello, crazy, bizzare world
This is the first post I decided to make. Hopefully not the last, I can only imagagine the trail of digital breadcrumbs I scattered across the internet (note to self: google yourself, try to prune some stuff). It’s an odd feeling, knowing that this here website is probably going to be visited by few, but nevertheless, on the web there’s always potential to be seen.
Being seen
But see, that’s the crux of it. Being seen. Being okay with being imperfect, just… existing, out there, for no one or someone, or any number of people to care about. This used to be my biggest obstacle, my biggest fear. From friends I surrounded myself with, my job in the gamedev industry, romantic interests, to content I consumed, it all pointed to one thing: the praise of the author.
The shadow artist
For how much I’ve been doing that you’d be excused to think I would have stumbled on the concept of the Shadow Artist I followed diligently, hoping the fruit would come if I only put my mind to following the clever tasks (week 4 gang all the way) put in my way. But the magic bullet won’t hit its intended target if you don’t pull the trigger. Hence, hello, world.
Why a personal website
I’ve become disenchanted with social media. I’ve come to associate a certain someone from my past with the entire Instagram platform, which made it easy to avoid it for about two years. In that time I had a chance to yearn for a more concrete platform to express myself on. A way that wouldn’t be a carved out piece of a larger pie, a part so small a promile would set you up for life… If you could keep up. Chasing the top percentile, even finding “your crowd,” it all seemed so… tiresome.
Then, over a very short time span I got introduced to two factors that pushed me in this direction: a wonderful person who had their own digital real estate and the brilliant marginalia search. Right then, I knew the piece I was looking for was that, my own place, to present my work. Company-tied, sure, this can and will serve as my portfolio, but even more so (as I’m sure you must have gathered by now) a place for more intimate, honest and candid takes. My own space, for my own thoughts.
Welcome.